I picked this monologue because my acting teacher thought I beasted it and I really liked it at the time.
But now it feels emotionally difficult.
As in I’m feeling things I don’t want to feel?
But I guess thats uncomfortability and depending on who you ask I suppose thats okay…
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately…
I think I missed a whole giant block of the growing up process. Or maybe not a giant block, that could be an over exaggeration, but I definitely missed something. That explains why I don’t really ever entirely feel like a “real adult” (whatever the fuck that is), and why I can often be nervous or shy around people I feel are more mature and have it more together than I do.
So I guess now I have to do the self discovery thing and figure out who it is I want to be as a human being. And how to resolve that missing piece of adult life; Because I really don’t like the way it’s going at the moment. I need hobbies and more experiences and journeys, stories to tell. I just want to learn.
PS-I’d rather do the whole stupid “quarter life crisis” bullshit now than 25 years from now when much more time has passed and I feel even more lost.